Job . . . . (Demo recorded at Matt's house, 1997)
Animal Kingdom . . . . (Recorded at Matt's house, 1997)
Eventually . . . . (Demo recorded at Matt's house, 1997)
Dying Day . . . . (Live at the Mercury Paw, Louisville, KY, May 5, 1998)
Won . . . . (Demo recorded at Matt's house, 1997)
Wait Til Then . . . . (Recorded at Matt's house, 1997)
Dead and Drugged . . . . (Live at the Mercury Paw, Louisville, KY, May 5, 1998)
Reminder . . . . (Recorded at El Chalet, Red Hook, Brooklyn, 2000)
Hesitation . . . . (Live at The Charleston, Brooklyn NY, October 18, 1997)
Light . . . . (Recorded at Green Door, NYC, 1994)
Jar . . . . (Recorded at Green Door, NYC, 1994)
The Sky . . . . (Rehearsal recorded at Matt's house, 1998)

BEEKEEPER - LAST & FIRST
LYRICS

JOB
(M. Schickele, © Jaspercat Music, ASCAP)

I lost my job today
I let it slide
They took my bread away
But I'll let it slide
I'll let it slide

Stared at the wall today
For solid three hours
Layed in my bed and slept
And get up when I want
Get up when I want

Join in the getting in, unsettling to see you getting stuck (I own this life)
You've got to get it going how long can you be waiting in this rut (I own this life)

Unhinged my head today
And I let it swarm
Now I can hear it hum
and I love it's hum
I love it's hum

When options lock you in
And you get overwhelmed
Say no to everyone
And you'll be a storm
You'll be a storm

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ANIMAL KINGDOM
(Cris Kirkwood, © Curt Kirkwood BUG Music, BMI)


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EVENTUALLY
(M. Schickele, © Jaspercat Music, ASCAP)

"She's mine, she's mine," he screamed at me when I went to get a drink.
"I saw you look at her so back off stranger. Don't make me cross this line."

Who's that? Who's that who wandered in? He acts like he invented men.
If he's half as big as he acts he must be bursting at the seams of his cheap blue jeans.

And Mary F. is thin, who's gonna reel her in?
Legs dangling from an empty head, she half alive or is she half dead?

Eventually I'd like to settle on an island, on a lazy little island,
And soak for a while, and I'm naked and elated and unfashionably faded,
May shake for a while, but a lie will be the lining, I'll pretend that I'm delighted all day.

I'm talking to hair that guzzles beer. He says he's Thurston's twin,
an innovator, all he needs is time, whatever, man, just don't take mine.

I've had enough of this, time to anonomize.
Become another noodle in the dance floor strudel, sweating off this wasted time.

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DYING DAY
(K. Schickele, © I Wish I Had Publishing, BMI)

My dark side wants to know why she gets to move like a butterfly
I do all that I can but the wings that I have won't fly higher than hers
I know because I've been watching her

our frineds all wave goodbye but his are a spread in a magazine
and so for the rest of the flight I'm watching him for any sign of a secret
his days must be beautiful

block in my boot talks to me
says run til your dying day
hand on my hip says love me
you know you can't get away

he works whenever he pleases he writes about what catches his eye
published or not depends on the season
he knows he'll get paid in money or leisure

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WON
(M. Schickele, © Jaspercat Music, ASCAP)

I didn't leave, damn it
I played it clean, damn it
I have won, I have won

Licking my gash, panic
wrap it in brass bandage
Make it strong, make me strong

I have won in a million little things

She cut me free, damn it
I am alone since then
I have won, I have won

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WAIT TILL THEN
(M. Schickele, © Jaspercat Music, ASCAP)

When is it, when the city is quiet and it's calm, I'll wait till then
And movement isn't all of a sudden, and I'll wait, I'll wait till then


Where's the room where we dance with our friends, I can't wait till then
I am dry, I am set to be loud, I can't wait till then

Where is it, there is no idolizing of lavish, I'll wait till then
There's no trick, you just take your eyes out, and I'll wait, I'll wait till then

She's got space in her flat and we'll dance, I can't wait till then
She's got friends we can meet, there'll be wine, I can't wait till then

Who told me you can feel alive in this town, I'll wait till then
I'm holding all that's solid and certain
Pretend they're mine

Choose a club we can crash anyplace, I can't wait till then
I can watch all the guys
Pretend they're mine


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DEAD AND DRUGGED
(M. Schickele, © Jaspercat Music, ASCAP)

Dead and drugged and longing for yours
And the lady said your run is over and done

Dance and sweat and shed all loose ends
In the latest race design there is no room for minds

These sheets are freezing and your heart is surrounded in rust
You push a smile out and it's covered with dirt and dust
These bags are piling up you'd better get out in the sun
You need it badly and before this is dead and done

Dead and drugged and longing for yours
And the lady said your run is over and done
Have you been a sponge for wine?
Have you kicked off your fears?
There's been a lot of shaking in your strut
Have you noticed your luck?

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REMINDER
(K. Schickele, © I Wish I Had Publishing, BMI)

Hearts can break without making a sound
Spent the night without fooling around
Fell asleep to talk of love
Held your hand in mine
Was it any safer than our lips and legs entwined?

Baby I don't know the score
But I know you're a player
I know you're going to break my heart
it's just a matter of sooner or later

Like to think we closed the door
Like to think we're home
Can we share the back seat without coming back for more?

Baby I don't know
The rules of wrong and right
Didn't survive the change in climate
Now we're the keepers, not the finders anymore
Let it serve as a reminder

One mistake always leads to another
Two true hearts turn to two-timing lovers
Three days of honey in a haze of kiss or kill
Fifty ways to leave your lover
Don't let the honey spill

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HESITATION
(K. Schickele, © I Wish I Had Publishing, BMI)

In my worst nightmare there's no sun our house
You're a silent crowd and I bore you

In my worst daydream I've just had you, my friend
You're all set to tell the world how I bore you

Hesitation, it's feather weight
Like a body stocking like a shadow
It's like my second skin
Weightless paper, cape covering me
From silend brow to shaking shin
It's like my second skin

If we waited on the world till we got our just reward
Would I hang on your star or ignore you

As I lie smiling, looking back on all the years
Will I finally know for sure if I abhor you, adore you

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LIGHT
(M. Schickele, © Jaspercat Music, ASCAP)

What's it like to be light?
Lay in air and glide

Underweight, striking,
Play in lines and glide

What's it to feel light?
Walk in waves of pride

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JAR
(K. Schickele/M. Schickele, © I Wish I Had Publishing, BMI)

I couldn't move my limbs for the life of me
My blood was sticking to my skin
My head felt heavy and hollow on the bed
My mind was sour and acid
I was dead with imagined mistakes

Don't take me out to the park, it won't work
In my past experience, it only makes it worse
The trees all laugh at how dumb I've become
The sun tried to hit me
I was dead with imagined mistakes

To open a jar
It takes a fist or hot water

Show me a picture of when I'm feeling good
Hold to my face and make me see
Help me find a flutter in the basement
Or tie a balloon to each wrist, it might help

To open a jar
It takes a fist or hot water

Found it, it was right behind me.
Soaked in sun, where I want to be.
It's good, it's all good.
Can't beat me.

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THE SKY
(William Dechand, © Bucktooth Music, ASCAP)

The sky is always the same far away
Clouds approach as the fall gets further
Still high gets higher as the roofs grow closer

Ceilings and fences seal our fates
Where we grow is how we stay
To the tops impossible
By choice

What if our fears are false
And fall away?